Long time since i stepped into here to make a posting..

Yesterday i met up wif Charmaine after so long.. always nice to talk to her..
Went shopping around at JP and met up wif her parents at Esprit..
Tt sweet girl got mi a coach keyring from China.. =)

Anyway, I feeel frustrated at myself.. Nth seems to be right..
Lotsa things to be done yet so little time..

I cant believe i feel this way, the spark betw the both of us is gone.. I dont know what happened..
Mayb we are just too comfortable to improve on the situation..

Had a small talk wif him.. we didnt argue, thankfully..
We are not on cold war or anything but something for us to think about..
Whether we want to improve and continue the r/s or just let it die..

Yesterday i got burnt by the live wire of my hair dryer and tt stupid hair dryer caught fire, short circuited my whole house..
Normally i would be desperately looking for him, and mayb crying to him bcos i am scared..

But it took mi a long time just to pick up the phone and drop him a msg..

I have a feeling that i am starting to keep everything to myself once again.. Its sickening and frustrating that everytime i am the one initiating to improve this r/s.. real tired..

Supposed to meet him today after work.. but i think i will just avoid him.. not intentionally but i need to know wats going on in my mind..

Certainly, he dont feel special to me just before.. and i dont miss him as much as before..